Why did i update? cause no one reads this... haha. Anyways, i jsut felt like sharing some of my thinking of the night so i can the crap to bed.

Basically, i just realized as i was lsitening to music... that it becomes so clearn and obvious that music is what im suppsoed to do with my life. Does anyone elses heart beat change to the tempo of the song? cause mine does.

One thing i do get frustrated about.. is i have no clue how to advance myself with music. I dont want to start some crappy band that my friedns know.. that never gets anywhere, watses a lot of time and money.. and ultiamtaley fails.. no matter how much fun it is. I would love to record stuff... but i cant play a flippin instrument.. i need someone else....

Know of any good christian guitarist's that have a decent voice and want to spend countless hours recordng stuff that will probably never get anywhere? haha

Anyways, time for bed, good talkin to you invisible people.

I like you.

But you like another guy... and too bad were close friends... cause now i have to support you.

I will, cause you mean enough to me.

Love lost, calous gained....

its doesent hurt so bad the 5th time.

I am not able to understand… your will o God.

I am not able to explain… what I lost

I am broken, I am torn apart. God I’ve put all my trust in you.

And here I stand next to your throne…

I am not able to understand… your sacrifice Jesus

I am not able to explain… your unending love

I am searching and seeking a missing part of myself…

And here I stand next to your cross…

Take me away from my broken world!

My life shattered before your eyes…

Take me away from my broken world…

I’ve given myself to you.

The Father I see… is standing right here

Ready to comfort… with arms open

He’s not looking at me… full of unreachable wisdom

Just tears in his eyes… as he whispers his love

The savior I love… is not hiding away

He is standing beside me… each day

He didn’t cause it to happen… to shatter my world

I just can’t understand… it’s too soon

Lord ill give it to you, all that I need

All of my grief, all that is me

I have lost what I love, I don’t understand

But to lose you too... I can’t, I won’t, not when you’re holding my hand

I’ll stand… with arms high and heart abandoned

In awe, of the one who gave it all

I’ll stand, my soul lord to you surrendered

All I am is yours….